I’ve offended someone, didn’t mean to, but I have and I’ve decided that I don’t care! That’s a bit of a breakthrough for me, normally I would. Here’s how it all unfolded…
Friday night I headed off to dinner with Super Sammie and a friend of hers that I’ve never met, let’s call her Jane. Jane seemed nice enough and it turns out she spent a lot of her younger life in the same area as me. We didn’t know each other, but we know the same people.
Normally around new people I’m pretty quiet, I let others do the talking and rarely share. Yes, I have trust issues, especially around people that have a connection to the place that I deliberately left behind and distanced myself from. However with just the three of us there was nowhere to hide. So after a while I shared that I’ve been reading some blogs, Mummy was a Secret Drinker in particular (if you haven’t read Sober Mummy’s blog, please do, she’s funny and engaging). I know I’ve shared this with you dear readers, but I’ve never actually admitted it IRL before.
I’ve been concerned for a while that I have the capacity to develop a problem with alcohol and even mentioning out aloud that I’m interested in this space is pretty big for me. That probably says more about me right?
Anyway, a nice dinner ended (Lickerish, check it out Adelaide people) and farewells were exchanged.
Monday morning I boot up the PC to find a brand new shiny blog from Sober Mummy, which was nice, she doesn’t post as often as she used to (yeah, yeah, I know, people with semi abandoned blogs shouldn’t throw verbs or nouns or whatever – I can never work out which is which).
So without thinking too much about it I shot of a quick Facebook message to Super Sammie and Jane saying “Hey ladies, this is the blog I was talking about”. Almost immediately I get a message back from Jane, curtly asking why I’d felt the need to send this to her. Clearly I’d offended her, so I clarified that it was just that we’d been talking about it and I thought it was good blog and that it had been nice to meet her on Friday. I’d hoped this would calm the situation. Instead, Jane accused me of not being truthful!
(I can only imagine her reaction if I’d sent her my other fav blog Mr Money Moustache! )
Great, just what I need to start my day. My first instinct was to defend myself, but that sixth sense that tells you more information will only make it worse kicked in. So I acknowledged her feelings (they are hers, she has every right to have them) and let her know I didn’t mean to offend and I’ve left it at that.
I wish Jane nothing but good things in her life but I’m not sure I want to see her again. I hope that Super Sammie isn’t being dragged into a drama that isn’t of her making. That is the last thing I want.
Initially I was really upset by this. I open myself up and am immediately rejected. However as you can tell from my opening line, I’ve moved on from that to pissy. I’m sure I’ll calm down and get to acceptance at some point, but at the moment it’s a bit raw.
What I’ll do about the rest of what I’ve mentioned above I’m still not sure. I think I’m ok. Speaking of ok, I do have some other blogs half written and I promise to be here more often.
Be kind to yourselves good internet peeps.